Have you ever heard people describe someone like " that person won't change, people have tried to help him or her but they have failed so don't waste your time trying to help them its useless',yep we all heard or said those words before. God says its not over, people have failed but God will not fail. I created this blog to share with you all my joys and challenges on the road to redemption. I have been in church for the past seven years, served, helped people and gave testimonies of what God has done in my life and all that.
Truly speaking I do not know God, I know about God and what he has done in my life, but I don't have a relationship with him. He is just my provider not a friend or father or redeemer.I went to counselling a lot of times trying to get help, but nothing changed because I was trying to get help from man not God. I spend the last three years not going to church because I did not see a reason to. going to church every Sunday hearing the scripture and hearing how God can change my life and yet nothing had changed in my life. The feelings of fear and hatred were still there, emotionally I was a mess. I was that person pastors and fellow church members felt sorry for, I tried to change but I couldn't. I was lost spiritually and did not know where I belonged. Finally after seven years as a "christian" I realized that I never gave God the chance to change me. I was always trying to be good and pretend that everything was fine and allowed people to tell me what Christianity was about instead of allowing God to do that. This blog is a journal of my intimate walk with God. As I look up to Him and allow Him to raise me from the ashes to restoration.
